What I got yesterday

Yesterday I sat with a friend and he clearly had to see me super depressed over the NS shit. We actually talked about it online,then I saw him at the cyber cafe as usual when I got to Amcorp. (He works in the cafe,by the way.) He looked at me and tried to coax me but to no avail. Lollipops were offered,ice cream was offered and even milk shake was offered...all courtesy to his treat of course. But that aside,I rejected every invitation. So finally he got fed up and made me look at him instead of having my head hung low,facing my dangling feet from the table I sat. We talked about the NS thing (or rather he talked about it most,cause I didn't say a word throughout the 30 mins...) and told me a lot about life's challenges as well as what he has gone through. Honestly the things that he had to overcome would drive any normal person mad. And to tell the truth,I'm quite impressed of him right now,giving me a totally different impression of him than I use to have. So finally when I got home,I thought about the stuff he said and figured that I am going for NS whatever it is. And maybe now I'd go with a pessimistic mind. Then I'd conquer the damn thing. Who know? Anyways I'm gonna thank my friend for the billionth time here though I already said thanks yesterday,cause he does deserve the credit. Oh and NS,screw you. Cause I'm gonna conquer you and get on with life. So bring on whatever you have and I'll take whatever you've got.

Shneep signing off minus the depression and being brave enough to face whatever is coming next! I think...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

As my title suggests,I have horrible news. I got chosen for NS! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! This is so shitty. And lifeless. I think I'll go drink some poison now...or jump off a building...or hang myself...or shoot myself...or simply get myself killed in whatever way possible. Basicly the idea is that I got NS. And NS sucks. It just SUCKS! It's like a death row concealed with a fake name. So many people die in NS camps. Stupid bloody NS idea. Curse the person who suggested the NS idea. Curse you to hell! Curse you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MJ's Gone

Michael Joseph Jackson (1958-2009)

OH NO! Michael Jackson's dead. It's such a tragedy...but may he rest in peace. I wasn't particularly a huge fan but I found his songs ok. Songs like Billie Jean,Thriller,Black or White,Heal the World,They Don't Care About Us and Smooth Criminal are really nice. Anyways,hope Michael Jackson has a great way to heaven and here's a great shoutout to him that he is the King of Pop now and forever!

For You # 2

For You

When the phone rings,

I wish it was your call,

When the computer beeps,

I wish it was your message,

When I open my eyes,

I wish it were your face I see,

When the sky falls,

I wish I was with you

Because there's no one else I'd rather be with.

So if I were to wait a week,

I would wait.

If I were to wait a year,

I would wait.

If I were to wait a decade,

I would wait.

If I were to wait a century,

I would wait.

And if you had died,

Please my dear,take me with you.

For without you,I would rather die too.

It's Only Life

It's Only Life by Kate Voegale

Tears are forming in your eyes,

a storm is warning in the skies,

the end of the world it seems,

you bend down and you fall on your knees,

well get back on your feet ,yeah,

don't look away, don't run away,

baby it's only life,

don't lose your faith,don't run away,

it's only life.

you were always playing hard,

never could let down your guard,

you can't win,

if you never give in,

to that voice within,

saying pick up your chin,

baby let go of it ,

yeah,don't look away, don't run away ,

baby, it's only life.

don't lose your faith, don't run away,

baby it's only life.

take your hesitance,

and your self defense,

leave them behind,

it's only life,

don't be so afraid of facing every day,

just take your time,

it's only life,

i'll be your stepping stone,

don't be so alone,

just hold on tight,

it's only life,

oh..don't look away, don't run away,

baby it's only life,

don't lose your faith, don't run away,

baby, it's only life,

it's only life, it's only life,don't look away...

Lyrics courtesy of lyricsmania.com

This is the very first entry where I have lyrics posted. I was listening to this song last night when I was slumped on my bed,snuggled under my own blanket and I started to listen properly about the lyrics and the meaning to this song. I felt that Kate Voegale sang a song so well right here that I could swear she was singing about everyone's lives. It means so much that no matter what you face,you hold on tight and never run away because this is what life is all about. The success and failures that follows is only life. So people,don't lose your faith and don't run away...cause its only life. And life is what we have. Embrace it,care for it and love it.

Shneep signing off.

Lost & Confused

Its like in a moment,someone could walk into your life and have you know that you're a burden. Last night,I sat in my room crying silently because of the thoughts that dwelled in my mind after I spoke with my relative. I felt so useless. Like a heavy burden that my mum was carrying. Like the fact that it is because of me that she can't enjoy life to the max. The feeling of being empty and alone filled me through my heart and my brains,causing warm tears to moisturize my face. Tears fell like a flow of a tap that someone had forgotten to switch off. The empty cries for help rose to the stale air of my room;my sanctuary;my humble abode. I felt the blanket dampen,I felt myself heaving for breathes between sobs. I felt empty. Like I couldn't scream. Like I was being crushed. Is this feeling permanent? Am I really as useless as I think I am? Or is this just life of being a growing up teenage child? I wouldn't know,would I? For I am slowly growing. Only slowly...as time would allow.

End of hols

Okay,as my title suggests,its the end of the 2 week hols. Nothing much was done cause I spent most of the time in Amcorp Mall. (Sucks.) And I started my hols by going back to Penang for 4 days. Oh,and on the 7th of June,my cousin Yee San and I went to see Raymond Lam! (More like scream for him. Lol.) Then on the 10th of June,Bryan and I went to watch 17 Again at Cathay Cineplex. Nice movie but it mostly focused on Zac Efron. The person who potrayed his best friend/"dad" was hilarious. The Ned dude. So overall it wasn't too bad...

Homework hasn't been done,haha,might copy it from my friend tomorrow la. School re-opens tomorrow and I've misplaced my tie. Have to go tie hunting in my room tonight. Next time I should put a GPS tracking system on my tie. Hmmm...

Anyway hell returns tomorrow...only 6 months to go until I can get out from school! Can't wait. Gotta start my studying soon,only few months to SPM!